Frustrated

Ok, so I'm allowed a rant post. It's my blog, and I'll cry if I want to.

I'm officially frustrated. I am frustrated with this whole job search thing. Maybe I was spoiled when I graduated from Nursing School the first time - I took 4 interviews and had 3 offers before I even graduated. And I started my Master's Program in a good place. A good place in my job, a good place in my marriage, a good place in the economy.... So I didn't think it would be hard to find a job again. I have essentially never had to work at finding a job. And frankly, I don't think I'm very good at it.

It's been 51 days since Graduation, and I still haven't found a new job.

I interviewed with the clinic I did my clinicals with the last 2 semesters right after school got out. May 15th to be exact. It took them 3 weeks to email me and tell me they were still interviewing, and another 3 weeks later they called and asked if I was still interested. I told them yes. That was 2 weeks ago. I'm beginning to think they'll either never fill the position, or they've already filled it and haven't bothered to tell me. And do I really want to work for this clinic? They've been interviewing since April and at least I haven't heard anything. Why are they dragging their feet? It makes me think that something is wrong.

I've searched for some jobs online, but I'm not very good at writing cover letters, so just sending my resume is kinda scary. And I haven't really been aggressive in applying for them. I'm not exactly sure why, maybe until now I've been holding out on the job at the clinic I've been waiting to hear from. Or maybe I'm still coming down from the craziness and stress of school. Either way, I need to get motivated.

And the economy SUCKS! I've talked to a few friends, but not many of them have heard of anything because no one wants to take on the salary. It's a significant bump in pay from what I'm making now, and I'm really looking forward to it. Marc and I already live comfortably, but we could pay off more debt and we're hoping to move back to Austin proper in the next couple of years.

Not to mention all of my classmates are looking for jobs in this economy too. 19 of us graduated together; 3 of us have jobs. Well, 4, but K moved to Alaska! I've been trying to get together with a few of them to study for boards, but they have test dates set and are stressing about the exam, and I'm not worrying about it yet. It's so fun to hear about their jobs and what they're learning and how it's scary and fun at the same time to be learning a new job in a new place. But I can't help but be a bit jealous too. I want to be in that scary and fun place.

To sum it all up, I guess a little of my shyness and slight fear of change is showing here, as I read what I have written. But I am so DONE with my job at the hospital. I love the hospital and I love the people, but I'm just done with bedside nursing. I'm done with 12 hour shifts that keep me away from my husband. I'm done with working every other weekend. I just want to be normal with a Monday through Friday, 8-5 job!